Work and Modeling

They get a lot of holidays. The holidays in the US are:

But we don’t all get all of those days off. Kinda lame. So, yeah, he’d have a ton of days off and I’d still have to work. He was joking with me and said he’d think of me while he was out having fun and I told him I’d be upset if he went out and went on trips without me. But how boring would it be for him to be just sitting around the house while I’m working and his friends are out doing fun stuff? This could be a problem. I’d be unhappy to be stuck at home working while he’s off adventuring and he’d be unhappy just sitting around while I’m working on his days off. So, I’m not so sure I want to keep my job anymore. lol.

Oh, the other thing about keeping my job. Jennifer said I’d have to take a work computer with me. Um, how? Troy took his computer in one of his carry-on bags and it got damaged. Since we’re not shipping anything out there, the computer would be an issue. Unless they give me a laptop. They still might be one because Troy took three suitcases worth of stuff out with him the first trip and he’s taking more suitcases with him when we go back. I’m still working out what all I’m taking and all that, but I’m going to try to keep it to three suitcases. His work will pay for our luggage, but I don’t feel right about his company paying for my company to send out a computer for me to work on. So that could be a deterrent. But I guess we’ll see. I need to talk to my boss on Monday and find out what she’s thinking as far as a computer goes. Cuz that could be the deal-breaker.

Plus, Jennifer said this would be a trial thing and if it didn’t work out, we’d just nix the whole thing. Sooooooooooooo, what would I do with the computer then? Cuz I’m sure not going to pay to ship it back to the US. Heck no. It’s $61 to send a flat-rate box to Malaysia, so it’s going to be a heck of a lot more to ship a computer back here. I so don’t want to deal with that headache. And if it gets broken, I’m sure not going to pay for it. So, this may be more hassle than it is worth. I will definitely talk to my boss on Monday. This needs to get figured out as soon as possible.

Well, as Niall and I were talking about the work thing and all that, he suggested I look into print modeling. A long time ago (back in high school) I was really into all that. I did a couple of runway competitions and when my sister’s store did public demos, they would ask me to be in their runway shows. It wasn’t anything super professional or anything like that, but it was a lot of fun. I did a runway competition at the mall when I was 14 and they asked me to come to California and demo for their company to see about getting signed on as a model. My mom said no. I was really crushed. That was something I really wanted to do. A few times when I was in Salt Lake and Vegas during high school, I got approached and asked to come in and meet with people about getting a contract, but I never did. Sometimes I kick myself for not doing that. I guess I just never really had the self-confidence. Even now, I get nervous thinking about being in front of all those people. But then I remember what I used to be like. In sixth grade, I remember getting up and singing solos in choir class. I didn’t speak in any of my other classes, but I’d get up and sing solos. Doesn’t make a lot of sense, but I’ve always been a strange child. lol. I used to do piano recitals and play the piano in talent shows. I’d play the piano while my brother sang in talent shows or different things. I played the piano at church quite a bit. Now, though, I get panic attacks when I play the piano in front of people and I can’t play very well when people sing.

So, I wonder about how well I’d do with actual modeling. Troy and I talked about it tonight and he said he would build me a portfolio if this is what I want to do. It was really funny. We were talking about all this and I kept saying that I didn’t have any demo shots or anything to show and that I had no idea what I was even supposed to do in front of the camera. He said, “Gee, I really wish we knew someone who had a camera and liked to take pictures. That sure would solve all these problems.” lol. It was really funny. When I told him I wasn’t sure what to do or how to pose in front of the camera, he said that it was easy and that all I had to do is do what he tells me to. lol. That made me laugh. (and, yes, that picture is of Troy doing his photography thing, that he does so well, in Malaysia)

Even with him doing the pictures, I still think I’d be super nervous and self-conscious. He said we could hire a professional photographer and that he would love to shadow the guy and watch what he did while taking my pictures. I think I’d need to have a lot more confidence before being in front of a professional photographer. I just am not confident enough. I mean, I’m confident in myself and who I am for the most part, but I’m not an actor and I get really self-conscious when I have to pretend in front of people. Sometimes I try to take pictures of myself with different expressions and I think I just look retarded. There is one picture from Christmas 2009 where Jill says I look sultry and I think I just look constipated. lol. Maybe I’m just overly critical of myself. But, I have to admit, by Jill’s reckoning, I never have a bad photo. So, her opinion is out. lol. All these ‘build your own portfolio’ pages that I’ve been reading say to have people who will be honest about the photos pick out the best ones and point out what your weaknesses are so you can work on them and improve them. Jill is too nice to say if I looked bad in a photo (unless it was painfully obvious, but she’d still try to find something positive about it lol), so I’d have to find someone else. Sorry, Jill. Troy would be honest and kind about it. I don’t really talk about pictures of me with anyone else, so that could be a problem. lol. Oh well. I’m sure I can figure something out.

This is the website I found that gives some good tips and thoughts about print ad modeling. http://www.exploremodeling.com/Tips_Advice/439/Default.aspx  It’s a very interesting read.

I don’t know if I’ll actually do print ad modeling, but it could be fun to try. I told Troy that if I am not able to keep my job, my free time will have an allotment where I will sit in front of the mirror and practice different poses. Exciting, right?

I was looking for pictures for that last paragraph and this one popped up. I just about fell over laughing.