(i found this picture after writing this post and decided to add it because it is very fitting haha)
What I’d originally planned on writing in my previous post was about how I was feeling this morning and how Troy helped me get over it. I got a little distracted explaining why Troy was up so early, so I figured I’d share my little story in a new post.
Since Sadie had woken me up at 4:30, I was feeling tired and kinda blah. Yesterday was a blah day, too, but I was happy and feeling pretty good. This awful smoke outside has made me not want to go out because it smells terrible and a few days ago I just felt so ill being outside and breathing it all in. So, I’ve pretty much been in my apartment all day every day since Sunday night, except for the two trips to the corner store so I could make treats for Troy.
Today I woke up and just wasn’t feeling too peppy and when I looked in the mirror when I was getting ready for the gym, I had one of those ‘I’m fat and ugly’ moments. (yes, i know i’m not fat. it was just one of those weird girl moments) Yesterday was the complete opposite because I was feeling pretty and attractive! I was feeling good about myself and really happy with my level of fitness. It was weird.
I was telling Troy about how ‘unattractive’ I was feeling this morning and then told him how it was the opposite from yesterday. He gave me a hug and told me I’m not fat………………………..and then said he WAS having a hard time getting his arms around me lately. That just made me laugh really hard and then I felt a lot better.
That’s one of the things I really adore about Troy. He can be clueless sometimes about the ‘right’ things to say and all that (aren’t most guys?), but when I tell him I’m feeling down about myself, he always makes me laugh. It’s something I can always count on: if I’m feeling sad, he’ll say something totally unexpected and crack me up. Sometimes it takes a couple tries from him, but eventually I do laugh.
While I was at the gym this morning, I was thinking about that whole thing and how Troy is so great about helping me feel better when I’m having one of ‘those’ moments. I think his personality is really good for stuff like that. At least with me. I’m not really into the whole ‘give me 5,000 compliments and go on and on about how perfect and wonderful I am’ when I’m in one of those moods. Sure, I like compliments, but compliments in those moments don’t feel as sincere to me. Someone doing something silly or goofy or saying something they know will make me laugh seems more sincere and more caring. Laughing changes my entire mood and makes me feel better about everything.
You know, that really is one thing Troy is super good at. Even when I get irritated or upset with him, he can usually make me laugh. Sometimes he’ll be teasing me and then I’ll get tired of it and get annoyed with him. Somehow, I have no idea how he does it, but SOMEHOW, he’ll end up having me laugh a minute or two later by CONTINUING TO IRRITATE ME! I don’t understand it and as hard as I try not to, I’ll end up laughing at him when he continues to be annoying. The brat. lol. It’s even making me laugh right now, just thinking about how he does that. This is a wonderful gift he’s been blessed with. It doesn’t always work, but most of the time it does and it is the weirdest thing ever. A good thing, but a weird thing.
